Showing posts with label death and dying. Show all posts
Showing posts with label death and dying. Show all posts

Sunday, December 25, 2011

She Cried For Them


She cried for them
Standing over the man that had raised her, grandfather being father
Thin and wasted, covered in a brightly pieced donated quilt.
His grey curls she tenderly caressed
Still and motionless in his rest.

She cried for them
The wife that faced the wall
Projecting composure where there was none
Now she reigned alone over her family kingdom
Her tears shed silently, veiled

She cried for them
The brother looking so much like his brother
Lean and gaunt, graying hair and wrinkled mask
Standing strong and mute beside the bed
Shallow breaths concealing unbidden emotion

She cried for them
For those that gathered and those at home
For nurses and doctors who gave everything
Head resting on his chest with unabashed sobs
She cried for them

She cried for them
When they could not
She cried for them
When they did not know how
She cried for them
And so they gave her license
For wails and moans and garbled love song.

December 19, 2011
Magdalyn M. Sebastian


Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Rumble

He was only 22.  The young man that we buried today.  22.  He had lots of friends and family who loved him, a "professional" sense of comedy, his own demons . . . . and a flesh eating bacteria.  Sweet Mother. 22.

Unfortunately, I've conducted funerals for young people and children before.  As with all funerals, each one has its own ethos, personality, presence.  Today the room was packed.  Over 120 chairs set out and still there were a couple of dozen people standing.  Grandparents, parents, girlfriend, and so many stunned friends. The younger faces in the room struggling with the unaccustomed reality of the death of a peer.  Michael might not have been the first friend that died, but his unexpected, freakish death was unfathomable.  Young men with bowed heads.  Young women with red eyes.

And then there were the motorcyclists.  The Barbarians (their actual name).  His father was a member of the club - perhaps he was too.  There they were, men and women, in their leather vests, boots, and sunglasses.  The bikes lined up outside with precision to provide an escort.  Somber, respectful, heartbroken.

After the service, I sat in the lead car waiting for the procession to begin.  Suddenly the bikers began to rev their engines.  Louder and louder.  A few, some, then all 25.  Rumble. Roar. The sound vibrated in my chest, pounded in my ears, and unexpectedly brought tears.  Somehow I encountered the Holy in that action.  A roar to God, putting the heavenly beings on notice. "One of ours is coming."  The motorcycles themselves wailing at the loss of one so young.

We processed through the small city, the bikers positioned in front of the hearse.  Traffic gave way to their angry engines, making space for mourning and grieving.  I looked in the rearview mirror - all I could see were bikes.  Entering the cemetery, they filed past the gravesite, leading the hearse to its destination.

Appropriate.  I never experienced an entire motorcycle club in a funeral procession before, but I felt that this was so right, so appropriate.  He was only 22. The kid was only 22.  We should all roar and wail and cry out to our God.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Mary


Radiant, poised.
Mother taught her.
Faith questioned.
Faith sustained.
Classic suits.
Grey hair cropped and coiffed.
Dignity of presence.
Dignity of soul.
Head held high.
Smile greeting, genuine.
Unflinchingly elegant.
Unflinchingly determined.
While those she loves
see painful movements
and note tears
quickly brushed away,
She perseveres,
in control, in command.
Treatments will not dictate life.
Doctors will not determine fate.
Laughter still peals
crisp, spontaneous.
Bedevilment and wisdom
dance and embrace.
Joy exudes through
decades of being.
Looking back contentedly.
Looking forward expectantly.


August 19, 2006

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Beckett

Nestled in loving arms
He looked into her eyes.
Deeply
Urgently
Passionately.


Here was a face, a voice
He knew better than his own.
More
More
For the journey.


Another face comes into view
In this face love and sorrow combine.
Both searching
Memorizing
Blessing.


He understood the play between them
And himself - each actor’s role.
Promise
Unending
Love.


And so the parents nuzzled their infant
Telling him good-bye
Breath
Slow
Shallow.


He tried to drink them into his soul
To know their who and their why
Time
Fleeting
Gathering


They traced his face with trembling fingers
Washing him with their tears
Attached
Detached
Eternal.


In eight days
A whole life lived
Hello and good-bye
Overwhelming
Mystical


And when he was filled
He closed his eyes
Silent
Fulfilled
Immortal.


This poem was published in DisciplesWorld, Vol. 5, No. 5, June 2006